In a relationship their is honesty and trust. There are feelings and beauty. Most of all theirs love. But to love you have trust and be honest, have feelings and then everything is beautiful. Without that you have nothing. You should never have to question the love of someone else or their love for you. You should know it and feel it. Grasp it with all your might and never let go. When you question someones love it mine as well not be there.

         I believe in some way everything happens for a reason. Rather it be to teach you a lesson or to guide you in life. Sometimes you are faced with situation that will make or break you. It's your job to take control of that situation and make the best out of it. You learn from your mistakes and your winnings. I believe there is a reason for every person on this earth. Either it be to teach another person the way of life or help others who are in need. Everyone has a purpose and are given the chance to embrace that purpose.

         In my life I was faced with situations that sometimes I had control over and sometimes I did not. Some things I look back and think man I wish I had not done that, or maybe I shouldn't have said that. Sometimes I wish I had more control over my own actions and others actions. I have thought as everyone has I wish that had not happened or I wish I could change this or that. In all honesty I wouldn't not change anything that has ever happened to me or anything I have ever done. Some things in my life even though they are not talked about have made me a better and stronger person. They have given me the power to be my own person and control everything that has and will happen to me in the future. Other things that I have done have made me more aware of what I have in life and how blessed I am. The mistakes I have made I have learned from and am now a better person.

       I do not believe myself to be grown nor completely mature, but I do know that I am more wise now then before. God blessed me with one of the best men on this earth and I had a change to make myself and him the happiest people on the earth. Instead of doing that I messed up and I admit that I did. That was a test that I failed. Luckily after eight months of making it worse I was blessed with the opportunity again and I embraced it. No god did not have to give me another chance but he did. With that said and everything I learned I wouldn't mess it up again. I don't understand how in life people can make a huge mistake over and over and know they are doing it. That is where you have a choice. No one can stop you from doing anything. I just think that with maturity comes responsibility and not acting childish. I wish to one day be wise and experienced and not a child. I wish to know how to make the right choice every time, but only time and effort to make that happen.

Sorry for who ever is reading this. It is not in order, its choppy. I just has a thought moment and wrote what I thought at the exact moment.